Sunday, December 29, 2013

Merry CHRISTmas

So obviously it is past Christmas now but since I didn't get to email last week, since I got to call home instead :), I thought i'd write a Christmas special this week haha. Well Christmas is always the best time of the year but this year especially so. I really got to reflect on the birth of my Saviour Jesus Christ. Being away from all that you love and cherish really makes you realise what is most important in life. To me that is the gospel and then my family. I would give up all the cars, houses, nice clothes, all the riches and the luxaries in the world just for those two things. My knowledge and my family. This gospel is SO simple and yet that is why it is so hard for many to understand. It is completely about a fathers love for His children. That Father being God and those children being us. He loves us so much that He sent His only begotten Son into the world so that He could atone and die for us. I don't know how to put into words the way I feel about my Saviour, my father, and this plan that He has for all of us.  I have so much I want to say but I really don't know how to even express it in words, much less in words in an email. It seems so insignificant on here as I am typing it but in my heart it is all consuming. I have never realised how insignificant I am, how weak, how small. But as I turn to God I am powerful, wise, and strong! I am so grateful to be here on my mission because I've realised one great lesson. Before I left on my mission I thought serving would help me know what I want to DO with my life. And since i've been down here I realise it isn't so much about what I want to DO but is now who I want to BE! And as I recognise who I want to BE it shapes what I want to DO! I want to be married for all of time and eternity in the temple of God to a worthy priesthood holder and someday become a righteous mother in zion, just like my mom and my gramma. I also want to go to Uni so that I can obtain the best education. God is a God of intelligence and He requires each of us to become intelligent as well.
As i've been here I have learned more about what I want to study when I go to Uni, and those studies are what will help me to BEcome better.  It is seriously so amazing! And I have learned all this as I am striving to serve others! Seriously guys the best way to find out more about yourself and to develop and to grow is to learn more about others and help THEM to develop and grow! This all makes sense!!! The gospel has never made so much sense! It is so simple. It is really so mind blowingly simple! Yes there are many things none of us will ever be able to comprehend or understand in this life, but really I think it is because it is to simple for us to understand. Think about that one.
Well yeah I think I am just rambling to much and getting to philosophical, sorry for that ha. Anyways the work is going well, actually it really isnt. We have very few investigators. We are getting really no referrals. We are getting SO fat in this area ha. And yet we are working our butts off! I often ask myself "Am I doing as much as the Lord would have me do? Am I giving it my all?" Most of the time I can say yes, and for those moments where I can not say yes then I know I need to step up my game. I would like to have more investigators, referrals, and just lessons in general but I know that it will come with time. We may not be seeing the results that we want but I know that if I can answer yes to my questions then the Lord is seeing my results and He is happy. I just think as long as I am not being struck by lightning then I must be doing okay hahaha. Well yeah. I know that maybe in this area I am just called to be planting seeds. Also it is SOOOO weird, really I have no idea what is wrong with me. I feel like I am getting lazy but really that isn't it because I can still answer yes to my questions. I think really I am learning to be relaxed! What a concept!! My anxiety is still there but I can control it because I've learned to give it to the Lord. I still get in bad moods and frustrated with my comp. but I am like so relaxed. I dont know what it is. I mean I wont lie there are still times I feel like I just need to take a nap or stop and if I dont then I will explode but for the most part I am just mellow. I think it has a large part to do with my companion because she is so relaxed and so hardworking. She pushes ME to work harder. Can you believe that? Sometimes it makes me feel sad because I dont want her to think I am a bad missionary or lazy because we really dont have so many lessons and she is always so happy when we get a return appointment. I just hope that I can be a good example to her. I still need to learn to be more patient with her though. Anywys I can't believe how fast time is flying by. I am almost to my six month mark which blows my mind. Everyone says once you get to that point it just flies by. I guess we will see.
WEll I don't know what else to say without rambling. I guess I would just like to leave with a thank you and a commitment :)
My thank you is this: thank you to all my family for all the sacrifices you ALL have made to support me and help me not only while I am serving but also from helping me to grow up during the years. Thank you to my friends for your examples and encouragement. Thank you to my God for being the most patient person with me even when I have seriously doubted Him.
My commitment: to all of you wether you are a member of this church or not I would like to invite you to really contemplate in your mind what you believe and then ask yourself if that really makes sense. Then I would invite you to pray and ask if what you believe is true. Some of you I know this will be hard. You may have known the truth once and maybe still believe it in some way, you may not have prayed in years or maybe ever. Some of you may be totally against "mormons" and their darn beliefs but really does what you believe make sense? I know what I believe makes perfect sense, because it is true. I know what I say may seem harsh or pushy but hey when Jesus Christ preached to the pharasees and saduccees wasnt he harsh and a pit pushy with them? Im sorry to tell you folks but... truth hurts, get over it and just accept it. For my family members who aren't members, I will be bold and I will not lie. You are missing out on some seriously awesome blessings and most of you because of pride. I will not push you to change your beliefs but I will invite you to learn more about the blessings that God has in store for you. I pray for you. I love you. And I invite you to take part in Gods simplistic and amazing plan for you! My greatest desire is to be with ALL of my family for time and all eternity but I know and I accept that it is your choice. Sometimes I will be driving and this work, this gospel, just seems like a fairy tale. It is just so simple and so pure. How could it be real? But the fact of the matter is, is that it is real and it is powerful! If any of you desire to receive the blessings God has in store for you I invite you to ask me, ask my parents or my siblings, talk to some missionaries like me, but most importantly ask God how you can obtain them.
I love you all and hope you had a very merry CHRISTmas and now have a happy new year! Love you!
Sister Boiteux

Zone leaders taking us out to lunch

MTC district reunited

Crazy house for Christmas

Making cookies

Results of cookies

Temple Trip

Matching PJs thanks mom!

New Outfit/ Dinner at Bishops


I love LETTERS from home!!!

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